Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Long distance relationship, sucks.


Not sure whether I made the right choice to share about my personal stuff in my blog, but I guess is fine to talk about relationship once in a while? Not everyone knows that I just broke up with my boyfriend, it's been 3 weeks ago. We both made the decision together after a serious consideration, but I will keep the reason privately. 1 year 6 months, ended. And for the last 2 months I am in UK, we din't make it. Love can't beat distance. Is pointless to discuss the fault is on who, and no one is qualified to judge. 

No girls likes to start over with a new guy, getting to know a guy all over again, learning how to feel comfortable, going through that awkward phase of being shy around a new guy again. So what I can say is, I put a lot of effort in maintaining our long distance relationship. If you know me so well, you probably know I love to stick with old things. I love to stick with the guy I've already with. I appreciate what we've been through and this is something irreplaceable. 

A distance between UK and Malaysia,we are 6544.8 Miles apart. Long distance relationship is definitely not an ideal one,and sucks! So that's how Videocall/ Facetime/Wechat have become our daily channel to communicate. 

                   

  




We spent countless hours just talking through the screen or the phone. I can't touch him. I cant hug him when I need him the most. But I can feel him. Look at the photos, we smiled so happily. We were once happy to be together. And the most important thing is TRUST. I can't date him like previously, I am absent for all his life, and what still hold us together is TRUST. My watch is set to his Malaysia time while my phone is set to my own UK time. One of us will always has to sacrifice our night due to the different time zone.

I remember I hugged him really tightly in the airport. I said:"I can't guarantee that our long distance relationship might work,but we will try our best. I wont give up as long as you don't" I felt so insecure at that moment but I tried to convenience myself, we can go through this stage! But once in while,as a girl I will over-thinking. Insecurity, fear and being too sensitive. I missed him, I missed how I hug him like a cola bear. And I complained. 

In the airport

Broke up is the worst stage to go. It's hurt I swear! I cried throughout the night, alone. I texted my mom, my dad, my aunt. I spoke to them, I said I just broke up but I was fine. In fact I am not fine at all. As I grew up, I know that I should be good enough in handling my emotion. But I just can't. I teared. But I never regret in any relationship because each of them made me stronger. 

I feel sad whenever I think of he is no longer belongs to me. I've been so emotional. I eat a lot. I sleep a lot. I thought we were good, yey at the beginning. But a long distance relationship can't last longer. I am stuck in moving on now. Miserable and all the sleepless night. 



If you can't commit in this relationship, don't make a promise. I've told you once, please take me seriously. If when until I stop trying, which means I am not going back anymore. It's hurt to let go, but sometimes it hurts more to hold on. And I choose the simplest way to stay happy, letting go of the things that makes me sad.People come into your life for a reason, things happen for a reason as well. I still thanks god, because he has assist me through difficulty, he once gave me a lot of loves, support and guidance in emotionally & physically. Even now we are back to the original zone, FRIEND. We bring the relationship to an end. And I understand that I have to overcome all this shit, its time to move on. 

Thank you for giving me unbelievable amount of joy, and giving me a lesson. I learnt. Every single relationship teach you a lifetime lessons, and time will eventually heal you. You have to set yourself free, and wait for the best one to come!






END!

36 comments:

  1. I might not know you personally but stay strong! *throw petals for encouragement*

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    1. Aww so sweet :) thank you for this!

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  2. ): this post somehow dejavu abit , but nevermind, just like the saying goes "god closes one door, and open up another"
    so you will find a rainbow after that (: stay strong

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    1. I will be strong. Thank you for your concerning babe <3

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  3. Mine even just went back hometown for 5 days I already can't stand the feeling :(
    Stay strong! :)
    Nicole Yie

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    1. You're right, you will miss the person at the next moment you leave him :) Thank you!

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  4. everything will be alright, jiayou.:)

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  5. Hmm.. i might don know you.. but had seen through ur blog.. i know how u feel.. as im having long distance relationship.. once the trust is broken, hard to build... stay strong..

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    1. Yey! thanks! All the best to you in your long distance relationship ok :)

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  6. aww babe.. seriously I don't know that you and him already broke up.. actually i wanted to tell you about my opinion but I am afraid that I hurt you babe.. don't be sad alright? you may whatsapp me anytime okay? :)

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  7. be strong babe!

    letting go the past means we set ourselves free to meet a better one!
    me too just fell out of a relationship recently!

    so yeah single and ready to mingle *shakes butt* lol

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    1. Ya I saw your tweet babe! Anyway let's stay happily ya :) Thank you for concerning

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  8. aiya.. ,my long lost blogger friend,
    i still remember i was down or broke up,
    u are the one who convinced me to be tough and stand up again.
    for now, i hope i can encourage you too.
    i know the feeling of long distance relationship,
    everyday facing pc or hp, cant really hug or feel him/her,
    is very hard to me too.
    btw, hope u can overcome all these things,
    and welcome back the smiley girl, ok?
    peace and be joy!

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    1. Aww this is so sweet ok! thank you, I will be find after some times I guess :)

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  9. stay strong babe..
    the best 1 is waiting for you^^ MUA~~~

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  10. First of all, stay strong and make yourself to be a better one:) And ofcourse blog is mean to share something fun or sad things that happened in our life. Nowadays i only see sponsored aka lies everywhere.

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    1. Hahaha thank you for reading. previously my blog also filled with ads only but now I am in UK, so I am turning my blog in a more personal space and I hope you guys enjoy reading yey

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  11. I like that line "It's hurt to let go, but sometimes it hurts more to hold on. And I choose the simplest way to stay happy, letting go of the things that makes me sad." totally agree with. stay strong !

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    1. Thank you :) hope this is useful for you!

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  12. Leaving the comfort zone and getting back to square one. I can relate to that, definitely not feeling good. But still stay strong. Good things will happen.. =) take care

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    1. Thank you! But I guess I can stand up again =]

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  13. Totally understand how you feel as I just ended a 5 years relationship (with 2 years of LDR) with my ex...Agree what that is being said, don't make a promise if you don't mean it. But I guess time will heal everything and we will definitely get someone who deserves our love =)) Wish you the best^^

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    1. Awww cheer ok! :) I believe you someday you will meet a better one. good luck to you !

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  14. I face the same problem too,but we end it with the single phone call, when he tell me already get married 1 day before he call me due to his mother request. !! -_-

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    1. Awww :'( Cheer babe! Let it go when he doesn't belongs to you, because the god will give you a better one

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  15. Hi Fione,

    i just read your post. It really touching >< I hope you will stay strong and guess what there are a lot of person lining up to know you :3 hehex
    here is my site :- www.marcsjy.com

    have a nice day :)

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    1. Thank you for reading and your encouragement :) I appreciate!

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  16. It's just the phrase to test the relationship, it'll go well with trust :)

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    1. Yes but we failed to make it :'(

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